The monks say we meet 12 people in life who cross our paths for our souls development for better or for worse: grandparents and parents makes the magic 6 that formed your existence, plus my favorite cousin is 7, most influential teacher, 8, which leaves space for 3 true friends and 1 soulmate love whom you marry because the soul returns and unites with the first spouse after death due to the soul contract. It is also said you will not know whom the final 5, teacher, friends and true love are until they have become angry with you, a spiritual test so you will know if they love you unconditionally. Also because you do not really know someone until a moment of anger consumes them. The Bible makes it clear not to be friends with an angry man, lest his rage ensnare your soul and you take on his bad habits as his temper is a vice. We are to distance ourselves from the angry, bitter, evil, ungrateful, or complain souls unless you want to learn first hand why God put the Jews in the dessert to wander around in sand for 40 years. Complaining is the opposite of gratitude, so let’s heed our ancestors wisdom and not curse our own life by complaiining, hurting or allowing the abuse of innocent children considered precious to the Holy One, using God’s name in vain or summoning the dead which is forbidden. Considering all the above and the million and one things that have to fall into place via synchronicity for us to develop into the soul we were meant to be in order to use the gifts we have been given. In the midst of the pandemic and current world events, my sweetest friend since the age of ten, may you know today and every day your feet touch this earth what a profound honor it is to have known you and to have been loved by you. I have had a front row seat to witnessing you grow into a beautiful woman that has overcome adversity from a young age, seen you reinvent your life after heartache and betrayal. We have shared more moments of joy whether at church in fellowship on Ash Wednesday than I can count, we have laughed through your ‘bridesmaid attack’ in a drunken moment pushing me up against a wall to kiss my “Angelina Jolie’ lips.😘 We have danced many Friday nights in all black incognito at Numbers to 80’s music all the way to the Limelight dance floors in NYC. We have traveled through the agony of years of you struggling through fertility treatments for a dream you thought would never happen, to you now having your beautiful boys and the family you always wanted. In every pain, triumph, struggle, smiles or tears our friendship has endured the many seasons of life through the years. I want you to know if your precious soul is one of the reasons mine came to earth to know, I am eternally grateful. We have laughed together, we have cried together, and I love your family as my own flesh and would lay down my life for you in a heartbeat. Yet we both know I am running on borrowed time. Look, I know you feel guilty about lying to me because you were too afraid to discuss what happened that night. Although you may be ashamed of your behavior, it really was not that serious or big of a deal. In my humble opinion there was a sweet innocence to your curiosity. I understand it was the alcohol talking. Steven said that night you were unhappy and stressed out about your relationship. Honestly, your schedule is jam packed, juggling many things, having to take care of your families needs but having little time for yourself. It leads to burn out, which is also understandable. I get it. More importantly, I get you and have always had your back. The hard part was knowing once your cocktails wore off, our 25+ year friendship would get put on the chopping block. So I beat you to the punch and called your bluff on purpose. This is not my first ‘bi curious girl’ rodeo. I have dated allegedly ‘st8’ single women my entire life. If I had $1 for ever drunk heterosexual bi curious girl that has come onto me, esp once they get to know me, is of no surprise I would be a Billionaire. I’ve had my shirt ripped off of me by a model in a nightclub before, had women I dated ten years ago track me down to shag me. Trust me when I say, that although you crossed a boundary, I can understand your curiosity. My lips are juicy, even strangers try to 💋 me and you never really had the opportunity. So you took your shot. But girl in comparison to my past experiences with drunk women, you were like Disney my sweet Cinderella but the timing is/was bad for both of us. I walked away, in order to spare you what would be coming next at home my friend. Cause I knew once you got home crap would hit the fan and it did. In a moment of weakness you risked our entire friendship but I want you to know it’s okay, because I forgive you for being human. There probably have been feelings lingering under the surface, incomplete for years but I was not whom you chose to build a life with and I am not into adultery or a homewrecker.. Out of deep respect for you, and to protect your family and what you had built I took the blow for both of us on purpose. You know my heart better than anyone, and you should know I love you as deep as the ocean is wide. There is nothing in this world I would not do for you or your family if you asked me. Yes, they can separate us for a 💋 but my blood is your blood, and my heartbeat resides in the rhythm of yours my sweet soul friend. Nothing and no distance will ever change that because I love you as much as I love myself. All I ask is that you do not spend the rest of your life feeling guilty, beating yourself up over what happened or fall into a depression over what has happened or transpired as a result of our evening out together. Please forgive yourself, forgive me and live in peace. Although I miss you and our danceathons, I want nothing more than your joy and happiness in life even if I am no longer a part of i anymore. I have enough memories of us to last a lifetime, well at least until my memory fails me. I do not live with regrets and neither should you my soul sister. You are a kind, good hearted loving mother and woman. I consider myself blessed to have ever called you my friend and nothing will ever change my love for you in this lifetime or beyond. 🦋 Song Dedication: When In Rome – I Promise https://youtu.be/UPQYFLlGpk8
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