Infatuation and and she’s married

I am in a long term relationship. My kids love my SO. She has a son who is a great guy and we get along. She and her son live at my home.
There is a woman (lets call her X) at work. My job has me away and solo when I want. X has been coming out with me, and I’ve been asked by her to accompany her when she’s out. We’ve been meeting frequently, and even have great chats via Zoom. We spend hours together and the time flies. She’s told me she’s married, but keeps that out of almost every conversation. She’s wonderful. Smart, beautiful, sexy, ambitious, and driven. We fit together very well. Shes almost perfect. I’ve never felt about anyone the way I feel about her.

I haven’t told her about my SO, or the fact that SO lives with me. I admit, its been deceptive of me and I can only explain that its because of my own selfishness. I have been deceptive.

Today X and I were in my car, and she asked about my house…then asked if I live alone. I said I don’t, and proceeded to tell her about SO. She said “You’ve never said anything about that” and seemed disappointed. When we left for the day, she wasn’t her usual bubbly self.

I’m really sad about that. I’m sad that I was being deceptive. I’m sad that I feel like I need this. I’m sad because I had the potential of being a home wrecker (hers and mine) and I would have done it anyway. I’m sad that I probably blew it. I’m sad that fate had us meet to late…

What do you think?

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