I think me and my half-brother almost slept together, last night. and no, not stepbrother, half. I’m so confused right now, idk what happened. we’re very close, sure. closer than most in the sense that we’re very open with our sexuality; we attend the same fetish parties and raves since we’re both working in the nightlife/underground scene and are part of those communities.
but this was different.
we had been at one of these parties and we both went to his place after bc its closer. we were a bit drunk, and high. stayed up the rest of the night/morning chatting in bed, but in those early hours we were cuddling/caressing a Whole Lot Too Much for siblings…. spooning, scratching his back, him holding me by my waist under my shirt, stroking each others arms and torsos. he kissed my cheek and neck even. we’re both adults.
idk what I feel. it WAS nice, comfortable, felt safe. at the time. but we took it too far, didn’t we? even for being weirdly close as we are.
it feels so wrong now. my chest feels all weird writing about it.
I wonder if we’ll ever speak of this again. I’m not sure if i want to or not.
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