I wish I was asexual

I’m a hypersexual 24 year old woman. I think I may have a sex addiction because my libido has ruined my life. Any free time that I have alone is spent masturbating. I can rub my pussy for hours and still not be satisfied. I’m disgusted by the sheer amount of porn I’ve watched and my need to seek out taboo (but legal) porn. I’ve tried things in bed that I never would have without seeing it in porn, like having a guy piss on me.
I’ve had probably hundreds of anonymous sex chats online with random men. I can’t help being attracted to the ones who are the most perverted. I don’t care about who the man is or what he looks like. As long as he can take good dick pics and can keep up a sexy conversation. I’ve never included my face in pictures I sent to strangers, but I’ve worried that there’s most certainly nudes of mine that have been posted online because I’ve sent them to countless men. I think part of me wants the validation from it, but I mostly love making guys cum and knowing they’re cumming to me.
I’ve never had a real normal relationship. Men who are interested in a genuine connection with me don’t seem to like how sex-obsessed I am. I’m quick to turn chatting into something dirty, which scares a lot of those guys away. I’ve gone on lovely dates with great guys, and I’ll try to get lucky with them at the end of the night, and they’ll say they want to take things slow. Whoever said that all men want sex all the time was a fucking liar.
My best relationship was with a married man at age 22. I was with him for almost a whole year. We were in love with each other, and everything with him was wonderful. He had a high sex drive and we’d spend entire days in bed together. He also liked that I did things his wife wouldn’t do, like anal and deepthroating his cock. He separated from his wife at one point to be with me. But then he found that getting a full divorce would be a huge financial risk for him, so he decided to break up with me and reconcile with his wife. That breakup devastated me, and I felt so worthless. I had a string of risky hookups following this, including with a guy who would fuck me in public areas, and a coworker who was 62 years old. I had to leave my last job after I was caught giving this coworker a blowjob in the bathroom, and everyone at work started treating me like shit.
I wish that I was asexual. I could lead a much more productive life. I feel I’d be a better person. I feel like a slave to my sex drive.