I had a crush on my math teacher in my high school. Since I had good grades, he liked to be friendly with me, It all began one day when his elbow accidentally touched my breast. From the very next day, he started doing it deliberately. He switched to various levels from just brushing off to putting his hand in my top to squeeze my nipple. Since i was a kid then and also had a crush on him, I used to enjoy it. I gave him more access. He never talked to me about it directly. All he did was to play with my breasts for endless hours as i pretend to be looking at the book. I misunderstood that he was reciprocating my love. But now being an 18 year old, I realize that he played with me like a sex toy. I feel guilty for what I did. But at the same time I fantasize about him before going to bed. I don’t know which way to think. I feel he is a hooker and again I miss him.
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