In school I went to a party where the guys put porn on tv. A lot of explicit sex. I admit that was my first time, and those naked girls being used for sex was a big turn on. I watched most of the night. Later, back at my house I masturbated until I was worn out, always fantasizing I was the one being used by those men.
This fantasy was my secret and I masturbated a lot. When I got to college and went into the dorm I confessed to my new roommate. As girls we didn’t have porn, but were able to buy a rape video online. We watched the video on my laptop. We took turns being raped, but always by the other girl, do it wasn’t real, just make believe.
Later that semester we went to a party we heard about, all grad students with undergrad girls. Our goal was not come out like the sissy virgins we were when we walked in. It wasn’t rape, we let them have sex with us. After we got in bed naked and finished our fantasy, I raped her and she raped me. We woke up totally used.
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