I know this automatically looks like one of those posts that write about a fake fantasy situation, this is not one of those posts, this is genuine.
I was attracted to my sister when we were younger. I’ve never told anyone about this, and I plan on just saying it here.
I feel so fucking gross about it. She was 4-5, and I was 8-9 years old. We used to do roleplaying things, and one of them was playing the mom and dad, pretty typical kid things, however, I think I played too much into it. We’d cuddle and there was this one time where I told her to pull down her pants. This is so fucking gross to look back on, but she did it, and I liked it.
THANKFULLY, nothing more happened than that. But there were times where things like that would happen.
The only way I can defend myself here, is saying that I didn’t know that it was wrong at the time. I was 8 or 9, and didn’t even know what sex or sexual things were at all. I didn’t even know what I was feeling, other than it was a weird feeling.
No, that doesn’t excuse it. And obviously, I still feel so fucking bad about the situation. I don’t feel that way at all anymore, and that was the only time I did. I just hope she doesn’t remember that, because she’s 13 now and would probably know what that was.
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