I have not had a normal marriage, and I longed for male companionship. After 40 years I fell in love with my male best friend. I am under stress with also being a caregiver. I do not have time for myself, but my friend was a gift I gave to myself.
I left my husband and lived on the lamb for 3 months..my friend helped me and kept me safe. But I thought my friend wanted more, he cannot and does not. I am now back home. I live separate from my husband in another room, we are roomates, but I have no male companionship/romantic. God help me. I want a lover, friend and a husband, I have none of those now. Im trying not to go into my pitty party room daily. But its almost been a year since I left. Ive been back 9 month but its so lonely. GOD HELP ME
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