In my head I have always thought that I had a problem with alcohol, when I start I can’t stop. I would always tell myself after drinking and doing embarrassing things that maybe I needed a real wake up call like getting arrested. I never once thought that I actually would. The reason I got arrested wasn’t for driving crazy but because I simply didn’t have my headlights on while driving on a lit up street. I thought I needed this and maybe I did and I’m glad it happened…however, I have fallen into a deep depression. I have constant headaches, nightmares, shakey hands, loss of appetite, and nobody to talk to. I’ve hid the fact that I got arrested because fear of judgment and losing friends. But I’m not that person and I know that I’m not. I don’t even drink anymore. I’ve defiantly grown from this experience but now I’m stuck with a constant battle in my head everyday telling me that I don’t deserve this life.
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