I do not know if I still want to be in a relationship. I still feel somehow trapped and lonely. I always feel so lonely. If I make the wrong move even once he is annoyed of everything and gets frustrated. He no longer wants to do anything with me. I thought when I got with someone, he would always want to be around me, be adventurous, spontaneous, he would bring me flowers randomly, dance with me in the kitchen, try new things, paint with me, laugh with me, etc. I don’t care about money or looks. I just want someone to be happy with. Is that too much for me? Hes always bringing me down. I cannot just simply exist and be happy.
You could try having a serious conversation and make it clear he could lose you then go from there
You are not a bad person being able too speak about this is amazing its good you can express how you feel without feeling scared you should speak too him talking is key in the relationship , hope it gets better.