My father came in the night

I was 12 and he came home drunk and my mother hit him with a frying pan. He got angry and he beat her up. He came to my room and told me that since my mother hadn’t let him I had to let him. It was quick, in and out, he came inside and I got pregnant and had a miscarriage. He never apologized and my mother never forgave me for taking her man that night.

I am married to a man who is 28 years older, he is a lot like my father and he takes it when he wants it, it’s his right. He’s given me three children and I stay home and don’t work. He comes home from work to get sex before dinner, don’t think the children don’t notice. They are young women and they know what he is doing. I tell them he is their father and it’s his right and one day they will have a man too. I pray that they have a strong man who knows how to be strong with them. A weak man is the worst fate for a woman.