Not Waiting

Did you really think I was going to wait for 9 months for you to return or get some kind of sincere response from you? Esp while you traveled and shagged other people T? Come on now. Be realistic, instead of upset. I can’t read your mind darling. You could have called me, we could have worked it out together once you confirmed your identity. I honestly thought I was being Catfished by someone pretending to be you. You, being who you are, can you blame me for being cautious? What if I had opened up to the wrong person? It would have been detrimental to both of us. In the era of internet dating, bots, beeps and creeps. I was protecting both of us. And when you failed to verify your identity or face time, it did not feel right to me so I walked away. I had also been played in the past by a fake cyber love interest after a substantial time investment. So never again. If you hit me up online cause you have the 🔥’s for me. You can either verify your identity via; Voice Call, Face Time, Google Hangouts or Duo, Fb video or Instagram in 7 days or I bounce. It’s not personal, it’s self preservation. My friend met a potential love interest on a dating app and they chatted for 1.5 years online but…he refused to call her, video chat or come visit. Even though we all warned her that the only real mystery was he was either; married, taken, a software developer collecting monthly membership fees by flirting with his clients to keep him on the hook, or the fat plumber with the big butt crack up the street that dabbles in programing and hacked her computer. Understand why I am not taking any chances on wasting my time. Also because your typos and spelling online seemed somewhat poor grammatically, I thought you were either medicated, had a ghetto education or publicist, or really fat fingers that hit 5 letters on the keypad at once…lol.. Cell phones do have auto correct for this reason darling. All grammar issues aside, did you come to my state (just a different city) just beyond our mutual connections radar so we could discreetly connect? I wonder but since you never called, I backed out due to the way things ended between us last winter. You flaked, no showed to our face to face video chat and we were done. Finito, I walked away without any regrets. Now Imagine my surprise when your own manager verified your identity, when you stubbornly refused too. I am still in a little shock about it. Although I wish you would have cleared things up last winter instead of letting things linger. I did my best to smooth things over, but because we are both in the people business, moving on is inevitable. Truthfully, I am a tactile person, as an artist I prefer people I can touch, or share time and space with consistently; twice a week, every other weekend, etc. If you neglect me for too long or fail to prioritize nurturing our connection, I move on quickly to someone who will. Just in the past month I have had three men and two women ask me out. Although we both know there is unfinished business between us, I cannot and will not wait for you to grow some cajones, and make time to open up to me and share your true feelings for me. I can feel them lingering in your energy, but the ball is in your court. I did my best to smooth over the situation, and make it right. The rest will require you to swallow your pride and make the effort to meet me halfway. If you don’t show up to make amends, and make things right between us, then that is on you and you will have to live with the loss and absence of me in your life forever. This is my last ditch effort to extend an olive branch to you. Life moves on, and you can see by my social media photographs I am enjoying my life with or without you. I wish you well, I wish you love no matter what the future holds. I was just secretly hoping to hold you in my arms and kiss your sweet face at some point.🦋 Angel Tunes: Reunion by Maxwell