Only Heaven Knows

I realize now I wasted a lot of time being in love with someone who did not know what love was. Their behavior and actions towards me were anything but loving. Love or a loving person does not lie about their identity just to obtain information to use it against you at a later date, love does not manipulate, deceive or string people along, leave them in pain and deny them the truth for years. That is why I chose for the past 7 years to stop any communication or effort with you, withdrawing my love, time, support and attention due to all your stupid games. Which is good because it gives me time to focus on decluttering my life. I have made it my life motto to practice radical honesty towards myself and others these last seven years. I tell the truth to give people clarity, or chose not to speak. Life is too short to lie to people, disempower them or waste their precious time like you did mine To me, betrayal of ones time is the ultimate disrespect. I don’t care about an insincere apology, I just want an explanation and the truth. Closure can be a form of kindness, it sets people free Instead you clipped my wings with your cruelty. It took time for me to see clearly, to heal from the broken heartedness. The Doctor says I am 100% sane based on my tests but I only have until March 2024 to get my affairs in order due to CTE. It is the same fate for injured football players. My true friend will accompany me as I fly to Canada to terminate our lives medically, before the symptoms progress. Which is why you will have to make peace with the time you took for granted and your unfair treatment of me. I have the impossible dream to reach, will travel to a few remote beaches, say final goodbyes to loved ones and finish my biography before it is all said and done. I have lived a good life, met some amazing people and accomplished other unbelievable goals all without your help or support. No regrets, except for the time I wasted on unappreciative you. I think I could have gotten a lot more accomplished had I not cared. We live and learn until our time is up and we are free to fly.🐦 Goodbye Tunes: We May Never Pass This Way by Seals and Crofts