I’m a young adult how is sturggling with depression; As long as I could remember I was always depressed and it seems to never go away. I coould never pin point something and say that’s the cause of my on going depression but they are a few things I’ve identified through my lifetime I could say helped it to remain over the years like bullies at school, childhood traumas even past relationships. But all in all I still fight against the suicidal thoughts but no matter how hard I may try to stop them, they never seem to ever stop. Because if it’s not some memory of my father beating me for no reason it’s the bottled up emotions I keep in cause I refuse to tell anyone anything cause of the fear they’ll use it back on me. But at the end of the day it’s night and I’ll continue to smile until it breaks me.
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