I used to go to in person confession but I havent gone in a long time and I just need to get this off my chest because I feel like I am goin to die soon. I used to see how long i could “hang” the chiwawa in my hands without it passing out only to the edge of passing out. I feel like shit I feel insane I get an intense sickening feeling, that I actually had the urge to choke A DEFENSLESS DOG 🙁 I don’t want to go to hell I want to go to heaven, the dog is still alive today but whenever it sees me it runs away and cowers and I feel even more terrible, I need help. I WANT SOMEBODY TO HUG ME WHEN IM HAVING A PANIC ATTACK EVEN THOUGH IM A MAN. I can’t handle them, I feel like God is torturing ,e the same way I tortured the dog. PLEASE SOMEONE OUT THERE PRAY FOR ME I JUST HAD TO GET THIS OFF MY CHEST.
It’s just intrusive thoughts, We all have them:
You might have OCD if they happen all the time though. Been there though with the animal one and with dogs. It’s intrusive horrible thoughts doesn’t mean we’re going to do them but they are no less horrible every time.
Honestly, who *hasn’t* wanted to choke a Chihuahua out? Seriously, fk those helldogs lol