Don’t get me wrong, I have a very good body below my neck, but then there’s my dude face. Sure, I could wear makeup or something, and maybe I’d pass, but who am I wearing it for? I want to truly be the cute boy that I am inside, and I want to be loved in a one on one relationship, but I also want to be lusted for by complete strangers, and for other cute boys to ruin my ass so that I can’t walk straight.
I just want my cuddles, love, and understanding, and my hardcore petplay submission fantasy to become my reality, but I’m also too afraid to seek out someone to love me for that. I’m too needy for polygamy especially, and afraid of being betrayed.
As anyone can tell I’m prone to rumination, especially when, today, I crossdressed for the first time, and thought I looked really cute.
I wouldn’t even mind a girlfriend over a femboyfriend, like, it’s just really unfamiliar beyond friendships and engages my fight or flight response.
I could really use that fulldive VR right now. I want a body without the perceived flaw of a guy face on a feminine body.
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