Beyond disgusted with the justice system and people in general

I found out a woman I was seeing was spying on me and I turned her in. The cops don’t want to do anything with it. They told me she went on an anonymous website so you’re in the clear. I feel it’s not the point and I do not even like cops. I never rat on people either but she stole my freaking identity and pretends to be me on my bloody phone mind you. That’s different in my view.

Cops wanted to press charges then I guess the DA says nah it’s pointless. Since when? People wonder why we hate the criminal justice system. It’s a mess. It’s all about the bottom line. It has to be that she went as me on an anonymous confession site. What else could it be? I guess it’ll let it go but people wonder why we hate cops and lawyers.

Still, all these strange logs, messages and so on that I’ve never even seen. Apple says it was your phone and we can show you what is on our end. My carrier says they have info too. Apple isn’t pleased but said we have all this evidence but she used your phone. We made it but it’s up to you.

They originally wanted to press charges but after all it’s my phone and my truths are spilled all over the internet. It could be messy. Seems pointless to even go further with at this point. I’ve become so depressed and disgusted over it I’m beyond lost.

There’s no point to any of it. I only care about the woman my ex lover leaked in one of the dozens of posts about stuff that either happened to me currently or from the past. I’ve realize I clearly still have a soft spot for the older woman. I feel like I’m doing all this for her and she might not even care.

It’s on an anonymous website but it still feels dirty and sketchy in my estimation of what my ex lover did. Maybe I’m thinking too much. Bimbo brought me here with all the strange tabs on my phone history. Might as well let if go and post myself. Bloody disaster.

I asked this website and another to take down one in particular involving an older woman’
I was involved with decades ago. Any lawsuits would be of it being up and having few truths in there. It’s been settled before but hush hush. If it popped up again and the wrong eyes see even that little tidbit I could get in trouble and even worse for her.

It’s true what was put up and that’s why it’s a problem. I don’t see that sadly going away. The chick got away with it, don’t they always? She’s a mess as it is and I’ve known her forever. After talking to the cops, I feel I’ll just let her commit herself as she seems to feel guilty about it and just cannot stop.

I am more angry at the websites for leaving it up and not even responding to my contacting them. With the way the world is today I guess I shouldn’t be surprised. I guess I shouldn’t even care but I do because of the person it mentions.

The problem is the woman my now ex lover posted these truths about in pretending to be me. She is all that matters and that is an issue. It’s the woman I care about. I’m not pleased a girl I thought was on the level at least upstairs that is, gets off by posting things that aren’t hers to tell, doesn’t know the full story, or left little bits and she does this all acting as if she’s me while using my phone. she literally told me this when I lit her in half.

She’s also clearly not well to say the least. Other times she made crap up entirely or possibly told her own junk but she was using my phone. The site is anonymous and she didn’t mention names which thankfully isn’t allowed but it bothers me. The principle of it all.

There’s a phone line in Australia you can call and leave a voice message to and spill your soul for them. It’s some project that people are involved in for research purposes. I relayed all that has happened involving this detritus and the issues it’s caused. I talked so long it cut me off. That speaks volumes now doesn’t it. I’m shattered.

I will be paying that phone bill off for a while but I’m honestly about to implode inside. Not pleased with my choices in people and life in general. I’m afraid the woman from my past she spilled secrets about will find out. Will she assume it’s me? Hard to say, although I could care less about myself at this moment.

I’m contemplating suicide over this and I suck at suicide. I’m getting closer to something and it’s not a good feeling. My mind won’t shut off more than usual and my rage is gaining steam. Something bad is going to happen and nobody cares. Sure, steal my phone and spill MY secrets to get an orgasm because you can’t wait for another because I’m in the shower.

F***ing nutcase. I’d imagine she has a disorder or two so can hide behind them now. Her husband now has ammo to divorce her if he chooses to. Bloody mess. Maybe I deserve all this bs. I wonder. I feel for the woman and if she were to find out how she would react. I’ve done my part and nobody wants to do anything.

What’s the bloody effin point? Maybe there isn’t one. The world just goes around and around and around and more bs lies upon another heap of detritus. I’m gaining steam and I’m worried. I suppose I shouldn’t be but I am.

Juice sells. Addictions and disorders dominate while we’re still people. I want to kill her for putting me in this position. She seems to feel bad but I sense deception. Women lie better than when they get off. They always get off. I guess I’m good at something. Yet I feel the need to jump into the ocean. I can’t swim. Why not at this point..