Confess

Hi
I am going to be honest. I feel like I am not grateful for people in my life enough. It is only after I lose them.
Sachit,
I miss you like crazy.
I never realised how much you effected my life, you completely changed who I am today in a good way. And i will always thank you for that with my whole heart.
I know its wrong to be saying this but I really really hope you ask to see me, even if it is for the last time (hopefully not). I know its going to hurt like crazy, walking away from you and trying to not talk to you again but if that is what you want… I will keep away.
You won’t ever know this; but bro you stole my heart. You wont ever know this but i really really like u. I have for a while now too. From like 4 months ago? I know you will always see me as a fwb and i know that you specifically told me that you don’t like me and cant see anything more with me- but i really like u and i hate myself for it. That was the whole reason why i agreed for the fwb anways, to keep you close. i really wish you would like me as much as i liked u. but yeah.