Several things have happened to kick me off into this. First when I was in my early teens I witnessed a man having sex with another man through the window of our apartment. I watched and masturbated. They had sex all the time, and never closed the curtains. Later I was seventeen and I went to this party and this guy started to put the move on me and I ended up in his car sucking his dick. He tried to fuck me, but he couldn’t get it up from the alcohol. I was very disappointed. Later again, in college I was at the apartment of one of my classmates and he put a VHS tape on of two men having sex. He had his dick out and was masturbating and he called me over and I went to suck his dick. This time he was successful in fucking me and I went away happy. I had been a long time coming.
Over the years I have been present with guys giving head, or reaming, or fucking. I always like to watch men fucking. I’m a cock lover and love to suck cock. I have a couple of very exact rubber duckies of real ass cocks that come in handy if I can’t hook up. I am always the bottom. I want to be fucked. I have had the opportunity with younger guys, but I’m not that. I want to be on the bottom, I don’t like missionary, I’m very much about being laid out flat on my stomach and the man on top. It’s my preferred position.
That’s it, that’s my confession. I’m gay. There I said it.
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