Death threat, heavy breathing and anonymous cards, who are you?

A couple of months ago I received what would be called a death threat to most. I laughed out loud mystified by what I had just read. With my personality, I guess I shouldn’t expect either. I found myself who wrote it and why. Likely a friends husband or boyfriend or the girl herself making her guy write it. Well, some dude did.

However, reading it I know a woman was behind it. I’m rather a ghost these days not because of covid but because of my health and the fact people suck more than usual. The same could be said for me even though I try to avoid p**sing you idiots off. See, I even put stars to what amazingly is called profanity these days. Uptight frauds. Regardless, I wanted to know who wrote it and what I may have said to deserve this.

I wrote down a list of suspects and yeh list was long. Granted, I went back years to things someone would actually get mad at to write about. Nothing was in the letter that specified why this person was writing it. However, being around long enough and knowing people, this wasn’t a prank or gag. It wasn’t a random sender either. This was personal.

A couple weeks ago k received of course an unknown caller. I silence unknown callers as they’re usually spam. This person somehow got through and I accidentally answered. Heavy breather. Got to be a guy or the girl is trying to sound like a guy. Hard to say. If was a chick. Breaths weren’t as long as a guy can go and that’s not a shot.

I started thinking of what I may have said that could’ve had some person write that let alone send it. While I found it amusing, the curious individual I am had to know the why let alone the who. I’m still pondering that. I’ve got suspects but haven’t said anything egregious more than the norm.

To put things in perspective, I’m blunt, not PC even though I somehow still see myself as a liberal but you’re not making it easy, and I often have no filter . I also say the things the rest of you want to say when a person deserves it but you likely do not because you don’t want the BS that comes with it. I don’t mind and often make my bed but stare straight. Is what it is.

I haven’t done that in a while as I’ve got other issues such as my failing health. Is this someone that knows my situation and wants one last punch? Doesn’t feel it but it’s honestly anybody’s guess. I should point out I have short term memory so one can only imagine the arguments with exes where I literally had no idea what actually was said and am telling the truth. However, usually someone will refresh my memory and some of it comes back. It’s also good in a human lie detector and always know when someone is lying. A gift. A curse. Is what it is.

Who wrote this and why am I so obsessed? OCD is one culprit while another is is like to have a dialogue with this person in a normal manner. Was it to get my attention? Check. Was it to mess with me? Possibly. Or was if an angry person hiding behind typed words? Likely, yes, although that’s obvious as it has no return address and was an anonymous letter. Still that writing was written by a man but came off as a woman’s thoughts and views.

It was beyond uptight to which in the direct opposite. I own what I say and do when I remember ih. Refresh my memory in person and I’ll know in 10-15 unless you talk like Christopher Walken (long pauses), I’d you’re lying or not.

The fact it was a letter and not an email or anonymous text pleases me. People are weak today and hide like turtles. It’s embarrassing. What did I say and who was offended, fake offended or trying to remind me of something bad or stupid from my past?

I have five suspects but can’t honestly say. Three I royally p**sed off with the truth which they assured they wanted from my perspective, but clearly couldn’t handle. The others, it was an augment that led to one hitting me. Wasn’t necessary but she has a short fuse. It’s not the girl that hit me as I know her intimately still.

Maybe it was a prank. Nope. Before I leave this world I’d like to know. Time is running out literally. I guess it shouldn’t matter but I’m a curious individual. One of my flaws I guess and I’ve got many. Was it the nurse I slept with that blew me off because she preferred her doctor borefest I insulted by questioning his ethics? Doubt it.

Was it my ex best friend who ghosted me because she couldn’t handle or want to even acknowledge the fact I’m sick? Quite possibly. She is weak and a doormat but here she comes off highly narcissistic. Makes the most sense but we don’t talk anymore as I saw her true colors when I needed her.

I’m still looking into this and fully admit I can be a royal prick. I’m a Gemini and a major wiseass but I’m loyal, sensitive and so on, but yes I am blunt. Likely, this is why someone wrote this. Something I said either that I forgot (as if I don’t have notes usually is gone within seconds) likely caused this but what? Perhaps, a mystery or well played joke but not how this was written. Somebody uptight, weak and hiding or someone just plain angry if not both wants blood.

Thank you for your anonymous card that spews out sarcastic or hateful words that they send you anonymously. They’re popular I get it. Did you need to sign it in blood? Looks like blood and I’ve bled a lot. Fascinating. I’ll find you even if I get to as a ghost.