Feel The Light

I knew when you were interested in me, your sincerity level was a 5 out of 10. Especially after watching you go from one failed relationship to the next. The common denominator is you and your stubborn inability to heal your childhood wounds and get therapy. Out of self preservation I pulled away from you because I knew you were just biding your time using people for your personal entertainment until you could get back with your ex. Everyone you f- was honestly being used as a temporary stop until you could rekindle a flame 🔥 with your current man. Look in my eyes, because you know, I know you reinvested into a cheater, an alcoholic and gambling addict because he is your mirror for better or for worse. But is he really or will you grow bored with him in time like the rest? Remember you chose not to onvest us, not me, not our future as a team. You don’t have the right to sabatoge my relationships or connections behind my back out of jealousy because you failed to invest in building our bond. Instead you chose to be sneaky and undermined our connection. People who know us both back in NYC have commented on how we would have made a great power couple; but fate is nothing more than the culmination of choice we make of where to invest our time. I wish you happiness, hope you are loved and satisfied with how unfairly you treated me and us both. Yes, I know and have always known because you are not the only one who is gifted. You were always creeping, and playing mind games when we could have worked the curiosity out of your system together, discreetly. I knew how materialistic you were from the start and I was not wealthy enough for you monetarily, just spiritually. Hope you found a deeper love than the ambition, scale, self criticism, chasing perfection that does not exist in nature, and see the true beauty in the colorful souls around you, hiding beneath a few extra pounds, or a surface paint job that can be easily upgraded with a solid investment. Sometimes the ugly Honda is in the driveway cause she saves gas with 30 mph to the gallon and the classic red & white 1950’s convertible Cadillac is parked in the garage. Appearances are deceiving when you only care about the surface and financial security that it brings you. Instead of what you can personally & sincerely give of yourself to the relationship…c’est la vie. I wish you love…always. 🦋