My wife had an affair and when I caught her I told her it turned me on thinking of her sucking and fucking other men. She called me a pervert and kicked me out. After a couple of days she finally answered my texts. I had told her that I was lying to test her and it really did bother me that she had an affair.
We got back together but every time I kiss her I think of his dick in her mouth and it excites me. Every time I go down on her I pretend he had just cum in her and I was licking it out. Sometimes after I cum in her I lick her pussy and pretend it is some other guys cum.
I know if I tell her she will get angry. I just keep hoping she will cheat again. I know I am fucked up but I can’t change what gets me off. I know our marriage can’t last and after we divorce how do I find a woman that will accept me as I am?
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