I’m really bad at communication. I get overly attached easily, and I’ve fucked up a relationship with another partner.
She was a domme, and sometimes we used pain in the bedroom. Now she’s gone I’m finding ways to hurt myself. The pain reminds me of her and it makes me cry. I love the pain. I hate myself.
I know that if she knew, she’d be disappointed. I’m hiding my self-harm from everyone, but secretly, wherever i think of her. I want to harm myself more and more.
Please find another partner so you can stop hurting yourself. Learn to love yourself. You are important to me. I love you even though I don’t know you.