I used to work as a nurse and one day I had to care for a young autistic boy, probably around 20 years old. I was in my mid-30s back then. I am also male and always had a curiosity for same-sex relations, but other than comparing penis-sizes with a friend when I was 15, I had never experienced any until then.
On this particular day I had to clean up/wash the boy because he had peed himself. He wasn’t able to communicate with words. He just made sounds every now and then. However he was a very handsome boy. As I undressed him fully I immediately noticed that he has a huge penis. It was flaccid but very long and completely hairless. I also noticed that it turned me on very much. I could not look away, I was fascinated by his penis. I started cleaning/washing him gently, making sure his penis was clean and then dried him up and got him dressed in fresh clothes. Before I zipped up his pants, however, I touched his penis again and got real close to it. I looked at it amazed and then I could not help it. First I kissed it gently, slapped it on my face – it was very heavy – and finally I opened my mouth and put his massive penis in my mouth and gave him a blowjob. I was so excited and turned on. He did not seem to mind it, he did not say anything or make any sounds. I put his penis deep in my mouth and massaged it with my tongue. However, after a few seconds of giving him a blowjob, my conscience kicked back in and reminded me how wrong this was, so I stopped. I have been feeling very guilty ever since, espeacially since it felt so good to have his penis in my mouth and give him a blowjob. I have not had any same-sex relations ever since.
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