I ghosted my best friend to avoid getting into an argument that is my own issue and problem. I pretend I’m happy but rarely am. I get used by my annoying, narcissistic family and I have used good friends. I lost a lot of friends I thought because I was always jumping into bed with them or too needy.
Why did I ghost the best, most loyal best friend I ever had? Like I said it’s my avoidance issues. He would think that as its known with me. He won’t leave me alone about my hypocrisies and fraudulence.. I know I’m sh** which is why I fold, hide and avoid.
Yes I’m one of those women that posts photos on Facebook or Instagram for a reaction with so a ton of makeup I sometimesI look like a hooker. I’m hiding. It’s what I do. Many of us do this but it’s so pathetic. He always said I never needed the makeup but with my family, being over 40 and my low self esteem, I just nod and go along.
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