I slept with my fwb as we do weekly. I’m unhappily married and my lover is incredible. I’m 48, of significant wealth given my profession but find the regular Joe’s are the best lovers and best people. They are.
I’m a horrible person but become weak and sweet with him. He’s not like most men I’ve encountered but a tremendous lover and person. He feels bad I’m married but said he can’t stop. I think he loves me and I’m madly in love with him but afraid to tell him. After all, I’m married.
One day I spied on his phone. I’ve done this a lot over the last few months and starting doing things pretending to be him I’d I’m able to get into his phone. I do now anytime I like when he doesn’t know. It’s a great turn on or I should say it’s become that.
I confessed things I know about his past pretending to be him. I feel horrible about it after I’m not near him but love it when I’m with him. It makes no sense. If he knew, I fear he’s dump me or whatever this thing is we do. I’d fall apart without it and him but all we mostly do is have sex because I’m a coward.
I don’t know what to do but hate myself and am severely jealous of all his female friends and acquaintances. Since we’re just lovers, is he sleeping with all of them? I have no idea but it bothers me. A lot does honestly but I need to tell him even if I lose him forever. I’m a bad person. I’m just addicted to him.
Seems to be going around as another woman on a site like this confessed an identical thing. Can’t say I’m surprised of either sex.