After many months of liking a guy in college, I think I have slowly developed feelings for another guy… who is quite older than me. And don’t worry, he is not a white-haired dude with 6 grandchildren or anything. He is a single guy in his 30s while I am in my early 20s. I don’t know what happened exactly or how I started liking him. All I know is that it started when I smelled his cologne (I don’t know if that’s shallow or anything), but the next time we met, someone had a birthday and we happened to share a table together—just me and him, him and I, I and him, him and me. The entire time, he was such a perfect gentleman, asking me what I liked and him cooking our food, then offering it to me. I felt like we were on a date (even though God knows it wasn’t). Since then, the feelings never left. And I forgot all about my previous crush. A few days ago, he talked to me three times and I couldn’t stop smiling or admiring our short conversations. I’m not sure if I’m in love. One thing is clear, though—he makes me happy, and I want to date him.
I’ve known him since we were younger. Back then, he was dating this girl whom I always thought didn’t treat him nicely. A lot of people thought it was cute and shipped them together. However, I didn’t understand why on earth he would stay with her. She would slap him hard (not on the cheeks), sometimes throw a punch, complain about him irritating her, and a few other things that just made feel uneasy about them being together. Now, they broke up, she’s dating a new guy and he’s single.
Thinking about it, I always felt like I can treat him better, especially since I saw him—like actually saw him. He is funny, smart, kind, and friendly. He’s so thoughtful about the people around him. And because we work together (plus the fact that I know his sister), I don’t think I can actually tell him that I like him or ask him out on a date. I want to, but I don’t know how. I’m nervous and extremely shy. Also, I’m not even sure if it’s love or if I just really admire him. I can’t stop thinking about him, though.
Any advice for this girl?
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