So today I had to go into a place that terminated me the previous week to pick up an item that I had forgotten and left behind. I saw one of my now former bosses and we talked about things and where I was interviewing (I’m pleased to say I have a really promising lead and by next week will likely be working again I hope). I asked about the girl that I had gotten in trouble over and ultimately terminated over only because I had seen that she had put in her notice and was leaving as well. I AM NOT STALKING HER… I don’t care about her, not anymore. I know I screwed up concerning her and she deserved better from me. I only asked about her because as I told my now former boss (but still somehow a friend) I wanted to make sure that she was leaving for the right reasons, namely a promotion to corporate or her own hotel (promoted from AGM to GM) or to be closer to her home (I don’t know where she lives nor do I care, but I know she drives a distance between work and home).
I wanted her to know that she didn’t have change jobs to go into hiding. I’m not gonna lay in wait for her or even care about her anymore. I’m not gonna come into the building and cause trouble. As I’m saying my goodbyes to my former boss (we may actually get together sometime) I notice someone is on their phone, my now former Director of Sales. I don’t think anything of it, I have no proof, but no sooner am I in the parking lot then I get an angry text from the girl. The usual, leave me alone, stop asking staff about me, stop trying to contact me.
The former boss and a desk clerk (I think I can trust the both of them) were the only other people that I had asked about her. So it’s this woman, Director of Sales, I’ve got a few words for… I don’t care about the girl anymore. You stirred up a hornets nest needlessly. You’re very two faced if you did what I think you did, namely call her and tell her that I was there and work her up. So long as she’s leaving for something better and not out of needless and unwarranted fear of me then that’s great and I’m happy for her. I believe it was you because several weeks earlier I told you something in private and my OTHER boss later jokingly called me out about it after you told to which you admitted to because you thought it was more funny then confidential. You are a two faced person and should know better. Okay, I’ll say it, you’re a bitch if you did what I think you did.
My friendship with this girl whom I got in so much trouble over I lost my job, our friendship has been very dead for a while. On life support and then beyond repair because of me. That’s fine, I own it, but I’ve come around to believing that I was also more of a friend to the girl then the girl was to me. Just as I’ve told others, I never expected to be asked over to hang out, but I wanted a two way friendship and the girl wanted a one way friendship. The girl thought it was perfectly fine to contact me for questions, for help and for favors; but when I wanted to reach out to her she went radio silent.
So to the girl, yeah okay I did you wrong. I’ll own it. But when you befriend someone and you repeatedly call them at varying times about varying things then that creates a connection. If you call me, then I can call you… If you text me then I can text you… If you borrow the proverbial cup of sugar, I can borrow the proverbial cup of flour… Not that I ever really called or texted you, but at the very least those few times that I did, if you had picked up the phone and talked even for a minute or responded with even a generic everything is fine thanks for texting text then our situation could’ve been prevented. Because friendships are supposed to be two ways, they’re not supposed to be one way. You deserved better by me just as I deserved better by you. So get over yourself, there’s no need for angry texts as I had no intentions of texting or calling or trying to find you. But the next time that you befriend someone, you had better be prepared to be an actual friend yourself in return…
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