For nearly 4 years now ive been forcing my voice online. Its nothing serious but ive gotten my moments online where ive received attention for sounding like a loli as people would say. Ive been in multiple relationships where they believe its my voice and are constantly reminding me of how cute i sound. obviously this comes with creeps though as ive been groomed multiple times and have played into peoples ageplay fantasies. I dont know why i do it but ive made an almost popular online presence for myself so its too late to back out now and out of my online friends lives. its difficult and embarrassing at home though lol, as having my parents walk into me forcing my voice is strange. My sibling has to deal with this too which as shes getting older i have a fear of her telling my friends or exposing me to people in our school. Ive already exposed myself accidently to my irls as i had my medal (an app to record clips on games) on public and they found it. they confronted me 2 years later as we got closer and i just said “oh it was a bad time, i was lacking attention” etc. they said they spoke about it a lot and were confused but i just changed the subject. my parents also ask about it sometimes and it just makes me wonder if theyve told my grandmother and stuff. I dont really know how to back out of this because i really enjoy playing games with my friends now. aswell as this ive been cheating on my irl boyfriend with a guy online so its a whole mess. i feel like a complete fraud being someone who im not and completely lying about my life/name/face to my friends, i wish i was the person i pretend to be because the amount of attention i get with the voice is so so brilliant!!!!!!
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