Someone at my school is stalking me, and my bf and I have no idea what to do
He thinks im staying calm but in reality im not eating or sleeping and i’m paranoid he’s somehow bugged my bedroom and is watching me but i dont think he knows where i live. i hope he doesn’t.
I haven’t told my parents because we only just realized and i think i might have noticed to late. im scared and i dont know what to do. Im only 16
I know this guy, we had a run in about 2 years ago, but it was nothing serious. I know he see’s women as objects, and he’s sexually harassed/assaulted multiple girls at my school. When i pass him in the hallway my heartbeat triples in speed and i feel like i cant breath, just the thought of him makes me want to vomit. he looks at me like hes hunting me. And he see’s my bf as “competition”.
TW: Rape/sexual assault
I can’t explain how i know, but i just know. i can tell he wants to sleep with me and won’t care if i say no. It’s happened in the past and i don’t think i can survive it again.
He looks at me like im his prey, like this is his sick fucking game. And i think he knows that i know.
I don’t have any proof of what he’s doin so i can’t ask anyone for help. Im fucking terrified but am to prideful to ask for help. im trying to act like everythings ok but in reality i’m barley hanging on. You can see my eyebags through my makeup no matter how hard i try to cover them up. No amount of coffee helps me stay awake. I’ve gotten 8 hours of sleep in the past 48 hours.
He knows my school schedule, he always “happens” to be by my classes when im either leaving or going into them.
Im terrifed, I’m scared for my life, for my sanity, for what might happen if he gets me alone. And im scared he’ll try to harm my boyfriend.
Every small noise i hear at night i’ve convince myself is him.
Im scared for my life, and i dont know what to do
I’m to young to feel this way.
Is there anyone you can talk to that you could explain your fears and paranoia too? You could somewhat anonymously theough better care albeit with a fee. They’re affordable though and it’s not in person is that bothers you. You clearly need to talk to someone that could provide help.
Much of it sounds like textbook paranoia which I fully understand as our minds take over from an assumed fear. I believe it’s a real one but it sounds like a lot of it is you assuming he may or may not do something despite being a creep.
Much luck on this but I would seek out someone professional to talk to it on its full scope as they can probably or possibly help alleviate some fears of what may indeed be going on and how best to help.