There is something wrong with thoughts I have sometimes, like about a month ago I was talking to a girl, she was nice, good looking, fun to be around, basically everything a guy could hope a girl would be like when your getting to know her. So about a month in and when I was ready to ask her to see If we could become a couple, we were out for a drink and we were telling each other our secrets or things not many people know. Kind of a “now we really know each other” . She starts telling me when she was at home on break from school a couple years ago that her and her brother and his and her friends were drinking , and more or less everyone was super drunk at the end of the night. She then tells me that she passed out and came to with one of her brothers friends having sex with her, except she used the term raping her, and that another one of his buddies was putting his pants back on so she stayed passed out for the first guy, and then she says”so he might not have been the first, for all I know he was 3rd or 4th” and without missing a beat my stupid ass says ” that’s kinda hot, I wish I was at that party”, and in my head I said to myself “REALLY YOU STUPID FUCK,,, OUT LOUD? ” ļets just say there’s not gonna be another date or any communication between us and according to her I’m a sick piece of shit that needs help, fuuuuuuuck , I know ishould not have said what I did but that’s the thing is I didn’t mean to say it I was just thinking it,
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