I’m a closeted gay attorney. I have served as the DA in our city. I married a woman in my early twenties and we stayed married long enough for her to have her children and raise them. She divorced me after they were out on their own. She is my best friend, she has always known I was gay. We grew up together.
But now in my mid sixties I am thinking of retiring, of moving to Arizona. I would like to start a new life, a new life where I don’t hide my gay life from anyone. My wife is totally against it, it will kill the children. It will kill your mother. It’s bad enough that she knows about, but that’s as far at it needs to go. Just stay put, and we will continue, a man, his exwife and his family.
I have so many mixed feelings. It’s not like it was forty years ago when I married her. I wouldn’t be the first man to come out to his children. She won’t allow it, won’t even think about it. It’s a secret, it stays a secret. She suggests that if I am so lonely we get married again and she will live with me. She doesn’t get it, doesn’t want to get it, the truth is if I did what I am thinking, she will be devastated. She’s the one that can’t live with it.
You really make it seem so easy with your presentation however I find this matter to be actually something that I think I’d never understand. It kind of feels too complicated and extremely broad for me. I’m having a look forward for your subsequent post, I will attempt to get the dangle of it!