I’ve written and re-written this post so many times. I’m not entirely happy with my relationship and I think it’s because I’m simply not meant to be in one period. This is the most successful relationship I’ve ever been in but I just don’t feel like I can do it anymore. I hate arguing, I hate compromise, and I hate feeling like I’m sacrificing my life for someone else. Perhaps it’s selfish, but I think the most selfless thing I can do is to end things at this point. I do love him, but I just don’t think I’m meant to be romantically involved with anyone. The worst part is that I’m attached to not only him but his family as well, the love there is mutual and I just don’t know how I’m going to cope with severing those bonds.
I take it back, the worst part is that he’s still under the impression that I want to marry him and have a family one day. He asks me playfully, “Will you marry me?” and I respond with a confirmation. “Yes, of course.” Am I a bad person? Is it wrong for me to miss spending more time with my friends and family over my boyfriend? Is there any way to get out without screaming and crying? Because I’ve tried. And every time I’ve been unsuccessful. I’ve packed my things, been ready to leave, then he climbs in my car and refuses to get out, telling me that this isn’t what I really want, and that he loves me more than anything, and that I’m his soulmate, and that everything will be fine.
I’m not fine. I’m sorry.
What do I do
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