My mother was the wife of a drug mafia head before having to divorce after he was jailed. My father was a high-ranking lieutenant in the army and had been a spy long before meeting my mother. He published three books under an anonymous identity with the codenames and operations that have taken place in the east side of the country before. My childhood was filled with public meet-ups with civil police and I remember the white van we would ride accompanying three officers. My father lied in his interrogation about one of the biggest court cases concerning the government for money, and in return, our names and identities were changed completely and we were given new legal identities. Since I was a child, they only changed my surname and added a middle name. For my parents, they were monitored 24/7 and weren’t allowed to leave the city under investigation. My old identity is still alive on paper just as I am. I’m not sure I can continue leading a double life forever. I won’t be able to get my identity back. I never signed up for this. My mother begged to be spared, yet the ‘good’ side of the government dealing with our identities didn’t allow her to abandon this identity and divorce my abusive father. My childhood was filled with abuse and memories that haunt me. C-PTSD. I can’t sleep knowing this confession might be getting read by them if they’re tracking us. They have listened to our phones before, we were watched all the time. My mother went insane and succumbed to OCD right before my eyes. Government is cruel. they don’t care about you. My father was suspected to have dissociative identity disorder, yet we can’t get a confirmation under these identities. My surname is different. People back in my mothers hometown question. I cut everyone off. Please never have anything to do with the government if you value your life.
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