For 2 years I have felt myself getting sicker and sicker and I don’t know what’s wrong. I can’t eat sleep or function normally most days unless I force myself to. I’ve never been sick enough to spend weeks in hospital but I’ve had more rare events where I will have severe non life threatening allergic reactions to everything. I was recently told that I have MCAS and possible diabetes and I can’t tell anybody because they won’t listen or they will listen and they become horrified. I have been having pretty severe medical problems that have left me on bed rest before and am having similar issues now. I keep lying to everyone stacking on lies about how “my car is broken the exhaust pipe broke” or “I have a lot going on sorry I must have not seen you when I was in today” or just straight up lying about where I have been because I haven’t had the energy to talk to anyone while out and about or I haven’t been out and lie that they didn’t see me. I know lying is bad but I don’t know how to not use it as a shield.
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