It’s disgusting honestly but it stems mostly from my depression and paranoia. At night, I’m too scared to actually get up and go to the restroom. Even during the day sometimes. I’m too scared I’ll turn the corner or flick on the light to see something awful and grotesque staring back at me. When I get out of the shower, I bring my towels with me, and if I’m too scared I’ll place one under me and pee on it and then hide it until I can wash it without my roommate seeing it. It’s gross, I know, but I don’t know how to get better.
You know the scary thing is that people really do see things like you’re afraid to see. Spirits and things like that. But the odds of that happening to you are so small that it’s not going to happen. And it could happen to you any other time. I can’t believe that you’ll pee on a towel rather than go to a bathroom. You could see something in your room that was a spirit. That’s dirty and you’re being a little coward. I don’t mean to be mean and I know that you want to change it. Go get help. Be a man and and change and you want to feel like the way you feel anymore. Even if it was a spirit that you saw they can’t hurt you. I studied spirits and the paranormal. The one thing that they have a hard time doing is hurting people. About the most they can do is scratch. They’re so rare that it just doesn’t going to happen to you. But that’s sad what’s going on with you. I feel sorry for you. I think that you can change and you’ll be happy with the new person you are. I always wish I could coach you but I don’t know how to give you the information to contact me. I would leave my email here but I’m afraid they would take that down. But I would like to help you though. I really would. I’d probably make fun of you at the same time a little but we would get you fixed. LOL no I would do that.