A few years ago, I was obsessed with this artist from a fandom I was apart of. I followed all her accounts. She had a long term boyfriend and I was envious of him. I did find his girlfriend attractive but most of all I envied his life. Mainly him having a better life compared to mine. One day I created a roleplay account. It was just supposed to be for my eyes only and it was just to imagine if I used my account/had my life in a different way. I used his pictures. A friend of the artist found out and he blocked the account. I felt so guilty but so didn’t mean to use his photos in a bad way as I was only gonna have them up for a good minute then take down the photos then delete them from my phone. I moved on but it still eats at me. Idk if he’ll ever read this but I would like to apologize to him for making him the object of my envy and putting him in an uncomfortable position. I don’t expect him to forgive me but I hope him and the artist have a good life.
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