Italian Spaghetti

I have never cheated on anyone I have been romantically involved with, even after discovering my 2nd fiance was cheating on me. Mainly because I made a conscious choice not to dishonor real Love, which I have a deep respect for after my first fiance died. Dated around after and dated a lot of attractive people but could never find anyone of the caliber in terms of integrity and loyalty to build a life with. So much so I went on 99 dates in one month but did not have sex with any of them, and only made out with two. I am such a tease..lol.. Dated 3 seriously and they all turned out to be jerks: the 1st decided I was not wealthy enough, the 2nd had a PhD and was arrested by the FBI for betraying his best friend in another State, the 3rd a Cop who told all their friends they really loved me while drinking too much and then admitting they were fucking a co-worker. So I gave up searching after awhile and took myself off the market. Instead just going to church, getting regular massages, masturbating daily to no porn cause I am not tainting my mind with shit sexuality of other people, hanging out at the pool, bbq’s,chilling with family etc. Just living with minimal friends and a lot of creativity during the pandemic. Beyond being stalked by a psycho Sheriff, I am doing quiet well. My friends don’t realize I only have two years left on this planet starting in March, and I don’t have the heart to tell them yours truly will be running out of time according to the angels in my dreams. Then you, yeah you come along in all your fabulousness and rock my world. There are projects I am required to complete before my time is up and you mi amor could be a lovely distraction. Based on your mannerisms and your tom boyish demeanor I think you are bisexual but hide it well like a secret. Not that I am going to push my luck since you won’t verify your identity. It’s obviously someone on your social media team so I won’t hold my breath. I’m a good person who lives a wholesome life but reserved and based on the lack of sincere contact perhaps not your person. Although a part of me wishes I was and sees you as wish fulfillment although the distance between us makes things difficult. It’s also possibly all business to you in spite of the flirting you do with everyone you meet. There are also rumors that you swing with your actress bff and her husband and sleep around with married men. Not my lifestyle or cup o tea and I am hoping untrue but you have been on the prowl even longer than I. So I decided instead of living in fantasy land, perhaps it is time to get on a dating service to meet someone who’s would want to have a baby with me or order a gay marriage mail order bride instead of dating any more disappointing Americans. Seems like a good plan to me and it also worked out really well for my neighbor. It’s strange that I still think about you since we met, but have not heard from you so it is what it is and my vision board and I are moving and to fulfill our deepest desires with or without you. I give up. Although I would definitely eat a bowl of your homemade Italian pasta off that sexy body of yours for Valentine’s..yum. 😘