I have s*** mental health and had been struggling from before joining gradschool. Throughout my gradschool I have struggled all alone unable to open my mouth and ask for help. Because of which I have screwed up so much of my research. I’m scarmbling to fix things up but there’s so much I f***** up that it just feels impossible. Not one observation did I take properly. I imagine my guide and parents being so disappointed in me and other horrible things, like them yelling at me. I have so much shame in myself that I can’t even tell it out to anyone. I’m rotting from the inside, my heart is screaming. S***’s a lot more intense than the reader may think. I feel like I may have to quit gradschool over this. But not even that is an option.
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