Betrayed my friend in a really deep way that I’ve never done before, after getting involved with someone I shouldn’t have. After it happened I immediately ended it with the other person, we went on break, and I apologized to my friend and they, out of some endless kindness, forgave me. In my own stupidity when that person and I got off break and started talking again, we met up again, and I broke their forgiveness again. That time, I wanted to confirm something about the other person, but I haven’t said anything about it to my friend, and the guilt is eating me up again. all I want is to tell them again. But I wish this never happened to begin with, that I never saw this person. if I could travel back in time, I would have never even allowed the thought in my head, much less acted on it. It’s been a few months and I haven’t done it since. I barely want to be friends with that person. I feel so disgusting, and I resolved to never tell my friend for several reasons. They don’t deserve someone like me in their life. But I am trying to do better. Eventually I won’t be friends with that person anymore, and eventually I’ll tell them what I did and I’ll make it up to them, if they’ll forgive me. It’s probably not likely, but I pray for another chance. But I do kind of want advice for what I should do if I’m going to be honest here.
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