I have same sex attraction. My close family would probably ‘accept’ me, at least I think they’d try. My family are the type to say negative things. I want to believe they don’t really mean it, I tend to tell myself they’re just ignorant, bc even with stuff like that I’m sure they’d try for me. My oldest brother is without a doubt the worst. (he wouldn’t ever accept me) He’s even worse then extended family or some stranger. He definitely means any bad thing he says. I feel guilty for being what I am, i feel guilty knowing things would change if I told them. Even with friends, things would be different. A big reason I never said anything (other than homophobia and my religious beliefs) was because I didn’t want it to be important. I thought so long as I don’t get a partner it won’t be an issue! But it’s embarrassing and shameful to hold a part of who you are to yourself for so many years. I don’t think I’ve ever told anyone. I avoid the subject and I am tired of it. All the things people say and think I’ll agree with disgust me.
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