i’ve gone through many lgbtq+ labelled in my life, and finally got comfortable with being bisexual and on the aroace spectrum. i’ve been with my boyfriend for almost a year now (my first ever relationship), and i love him to the ends of the earth, but i am a highly anxious person and extremely prone to overthinking, and i’m starting to worry that i may be lesbian. i’ve never been with a woman before, and i feel like i might miss out on an experience if i stay with my bf for the rest of my life. i’ve read the ‘am i a lesbian’ masterdoc, and only identify with some of the points listed, but even then i still doubt myself. it’s very hard to understand whether or not my apprehensions towards romance and sex are because i’m on the aroace spectrum or because i’m just a lesbian dating a man. something feels right about calling myself a lesbian, but bisexual feels right for me too. maybe a little less so… i’m just not sure. it’s terrifying, because i love my boyfriend so much, but my feelings fluctuate and change sometimes, causing a lot of self doubt and doubt in our relationship. writing it out has made me more confident in my bisexuality, but i know the fear might come back someday – whether that’s because i’m so paranoid, or because i really am a lesbian, i don’t think i’ll ever know.
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